Now, let me make it clear that I have great respect for the teaching occupation and that I went into teaching myself because I saw the benefits of good teaching in my own life and thought that it would be a great way to work for change in the world (you could take “change” two different ways I suppose), but when I was teaching I felt like the only change that was being made was a change in heart for me personally. I quickly lost purpose in what I was doing because I frankly could not keep my head above water with the particular teaching assignment I had (I won’t complain with the details here), but I knew that I wanted to do something for education that had a technological bend as these are the two things in life that get me most giddy (hence my ever growing fetish with http://www.ted.com).
While teaching I became very depressed as I was feeling like I was making zero difference in the world with a heart that wanted to give every ounce of energy and passion towards the Jesus movement I was only beginning (and still am) to come to terms with. It got really bad. Poor Lindsay had to deal with my very dark sides of gloom and doom for many months on end and I had to eventually quit teaching and seek counseling in order to simply maintain sanity. I felt hopeless toward making any lasting change in the people and culture that is a part of my own background and upbringing. Of course, as always, I needed and need to be that change that I want to see in the world. So, I had to make a change.
I started putting my application into any opportunity I could: coffee shops, inner-city teaching opportunities, teaching opportunities over-seas, and really anything I could find at all. I started substitute teaching and despite popular opinion about it found it to be very rewarding in many respects (and I think that has something also to say about the particular teaching scenario I was dealing with previously, but again I feel no need to bash my former employer).
Soon after I started substitute teaching there I actually landed a job up in Lansing as a science teacher yet again, but had to decline the opportunity due to the driving distance and a couple of other logistics. About a week later I came across a job opportunity at Spring Arbor University (where Lindsay works) for a help desk technology position which greatly caught my interest as I have a natural curiosity for technology and especially in an academic setting. I also thought it would be a great place to continue my education in Instructional Design which has proved to be very true.
I just have to rejoice and praise the G#D of redemption that He not only graciously gave me the job at the help desk where I got to work along side the likes of Jason Thiede and all the outstanding people of technology services, but that He has now provided me with a job opportunity to work now as an instructional designer. Instructional Design just so happens to be what I am working towards in my masters degree right now and as this is truly what I want to do for the rest of my life. I think that one day, down the road, I would like to teach again, but at the college level and that I would like to pursue a doctorate degree as I simply cannot get enough of learning. I absolutely love to think about the opportunities that education will provide in the future of this world of G#D’s and feel deeply honored to be called to His work within it.
I don’t know who reads this blog, but I imagine if you are still reading right now you are most likely someone who has prayed for me and given me encouragement or guidance during these past few rocky years of my life out of college and for that I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Mostly, I want to say thank you to my sweet, understanding, caring, loving, and beautiful bride for all her patient coaching through these career changes and for sacrificially allowing me to go to school so that I can find my nitch and better provide for our family. Lindsay is my simply my shero and my inspiration. I love you, babe.